An Excerpt from A Past Love

Surfing my old notebooks:
[I remember who it was for.]

The way I see us:
You are my breath of fresh air,
and I am taking the time to breathe you in.
I wonder where you've been through this journey/
on this path to finding myself.
Then I close my eyes and I can picture us in the future.
You are one of the many reasons I wake up in the morning and push myself,
loving you on a level that is higher than that of a normal state.
Do you think that anything can surpass the amount of love I have to offer you?
Are you ready?
You are a beautiful person, inside, outside, sideways, backwards, forwards...
The things you tell me, and the way I feel when you say them is different than anyway I've ever felt when told that before.
Your sincerity weakens me and it makes it hard for me to catch my breath, I begin to shake as the chills run down my spine...
When I lay down @ night or should I say early morning after completing a conversation with you,
I stare out into space and I am in limbo.
I find myself spinning and I don't know whether or not I'm coming or going.
I am incomplete, I am lonely and I am lost.
When I finally close my eyes visions of you and I engulf the capacity of my thoughts.
I can feel you touching me, I can hear your voice in my ear...I want to release all my stress and let go of all my inhibitions with you...Do you think you are ready? Can you feel me...can you taste me...am I as sweet as you expected me to be...are you turned on...Is my touch
as soft as you expected it to be? Do I satisfy you on a level that surpasses normal? I can feel you and we fit perfect...
I can feel your fingers exploring me...making me shake uncontrollably...with moans that turn into screams...My moans become
in sync with the music playing in the background of our love-making..."ahh, ohh, ohh"...picture that...As we lie there naked drenched in each other's sweat...
I'll whisper that I love you one more time...and I'll fall asleep in your arms with a smile on my face.
Then we will repeat these actions over and over until we can no longer...
I can see us together in the future...
We are going to set an example for how a relationship should be...You are my best friend as well as my lover...
If nothing else is going right in my life...You are the one thing that is...People come into your life for a reason, hopefully the reason we came into each other's is to teach us what something real felt like...